JeshikaDawn
I want to run, but only far enough for you to miss me.

I don't want to be alone, but sometimes it's necessary.

I'm forced to take a smile, a laugh everyday of my life. My heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with.

Yeah maybe it's true, we don't know what we've got until we've lost it. But maybe it's also true that we didn't know what we were missing until we thought we had found it.

It's weird how you can go from being complete strangers to being friends, to being more than friends, to being practically strangers again. And it all happens so fast.

And she says she doesn't care but the look in her eye tells a totally different story.

it's sad that sometimes moving on with the rest of your life. Starts with a goodbye...

When I'm quiet, a million things are going through my mind.

I've learnt that goodbyes will always hurt. Pictures will never replace having been there. Memories, good or bad, will always bring tears and words can never replace those feelings. 

I miss you more than words can say, more than tears can show and more than you'll ever, ever know.

I'm sorry, is a little too late.

It's sad when people you know become people you knew, when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours and how you can now barely even look at them.

And she's crying on the inside, but she'll never let them know.

And if one day I actually start to matter, please let me know.

The worst prison would be a closed heart.

I'd give all I have to say, just for you to stay.

I don't want you to see me, I'm broken down, torn up and lonely.

I hurt deeper than you'll ever know.

Just because her eyes don't tear, doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry and just because she comes off strong, doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.

If tears made you pretty, I'd be fucking gorgeous. 

Tears are words from the heart that cannot be spoken.

Just because I smile doesn't mean I'm happy. it takes one smile to cover a million tears.

Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, we must fall in order to know. Sometimes our visions clear only after our eyes are washed away with tears.

Welcome to teenage heartache, it's a bitch.

Deep in my heart I'm concealing things that I'm longing to say. 
Scared to confess how I'm feeling- frightened you'll slip away.

She's got the eyes of innocence, the face of an angel, a personality of a dreamer. 
And a smile that hides more pain than you could ever imagine.

I don't love me, that's why I doubt that you do.

Relationships are like glass. 
Sometimes it's easier to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting the pieces back together.

You want to help me? Just let me cry.

I didn't want to admit it, it was easier to lie.
And hide the hurt and emptiness, to smile instead of cry.

One moment you're really close to someone and in the next..
You're never going to see them again.

The happy times we had together. Are worth the times I cry alone.

A broken heart isn't what I want from this, but I guess I've learnt from it.

You taught me to love, but not how to stop or how to forget what I feel for you.

Sometimes.. the memories are worth the pain.

It's hard to pretend you love someone when you don't. 
But it's even harder to pretend you don't love someone, when really, you do.

It takes years to build trust, but seconds to destroy it.

Every time I miss you, a star falls from the sky. So if one night you looked up at the sky and found it dark with no stars, it is all your fault. You made me miss you too much.

There's nothing left that I can do, at least you know I tried.

Isn't it funny how the people who said "I'll never hurt you" are the ones who hurt you the most.

You live. You laugh. You love. You learn. You scream. You cry. You crash. You burn.

It's no big deal, really. Break her heart. Let her down. Make her cry.
'Coz you care about her right?

I wrote you a letter.. But it will never get to you, because I don't plan on sending it to you.
And in the end we'll have different feelings anyway.

I'll fake just one more smile for you? With my plastic smile, real tears.

I have never been so close to just giving up and all I have to blame is you.

I never stopped feeling for you. 
I just stopped letting it show.

She's done dropping hints. Figure it out yourself, pretty boy.

If you looked inside a girl, you would see how much she really cries, you would find so many secrets & lots of lies, but what you'll see most is how hard it is to be strong when nothing is right and everything seems wrong.

We may die of medication but at least we kill the pain.

There's a smile on my face but I don't even know why it's there. I put it on to satisfy all the people that don't even care.

Tell me something that's sure to break my heart. Coz everything's my fault, right?

Pain doesn't hurt when it's all you've ever felt.

I'm tired of pretending everything's okay. My tears are starting to show and my smile's fading away.

She finally gave up, she dropped the fake smile & as a tear rolled down her cheek
She whispered, 'I can't do this any more'.

And just because she comes off strong doesn't mean she didn't fall asleep crying & even though she acts like nothing is wrong, maybe, just maybe. She's really good at lying.

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes, every day I wondered how I'd get through the night, every change life has thrown me; I'm thankful for every break in my heart, I'm grateful for every start, some pages turned, some bridges built.
But there were lessons learnt..

I'm not going to stress over you any more, it isn't worth it. I tried to work something out, but you just ignored it. I'm not trying to say I don't want you, because I definitely do. All I'm saying is I'm done chasing after you.

And it's always the same old. You give me some attention, I think everything is changing for the better. And once more you prove me wrong like every other time. Things go back to the way it's always been. Everything else comes before me. I was so dumb to think you would ever change.

Promises mean everything, but once they're broken. Sorry means nothing.

And in the end, everyone turns out to be the person they swore they'd never become.

Sometimes the only person you can trust is yourself.

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see the pain someone feels.

Never give up if you still wanna try.
Never wipe away tears, if you still wanna cry.
Never settle with the answer if you still wanna know.

Trust is like a mirror, once you break it, you can never look at it the same again.

So here's to teenage romance and not knowing why it hurts like hell.

She degrades herself so the boys will like her.
She cuts herself because the girls don't.
She smiles on the outside, but bleeds on the inside.
She can't take it any more.
The pain is real even if nobody knows.
I pretend that I'm glad you went away.
These walls are closing more every day
And I'm dying inside and nobody knows it but me.
Like a clown, I put on a show.

What is heartbroken? 
It's lying on the bathroom floor trying your damnedest to breathe while simultaneously wondering why it went wrong; how you are gonna get up and pretend like everything is alright and what the hell you are going to do about that hole in your chest.
Yeah that's it.

You said you would never hurt me.
You said you'd never make me cry.Well, there one thing I can admit.
You tell a perfect lie.

Even though you're the reason I feel like this , I only ever blamed myself.
You see me laughing in class. Dancing in the school hallway.
- I cried myself to sleep that night.

You feel all alone and like no one cares... so you hurt yourself.

I'm alright, it only hurts when I breathe.

You'll just never know, so many emotions , I choose not to show.

I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy, I'm going to laugh so you don't see me cry and even if it kills I'm going to tell you Im fine.

Never underestimate the pain of a person because the truth is everyone is struggling.  It's just some people hide it better than others.

Things are going crazy and I'm not sure who to blame.  Everything is changing and I don't feel the same.  I'm slipping through the cracks of floors I thought were strong.  I'm trying to find a place where I feel like I belong.

Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody.  You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy but at the same time you don't know exactly what is wrong either?

Wear a mask that grins & lies, it hides our cheeks & shades our eyes. The debt we pay to human guile, with torn & broken hearts; we smile.

I feel weaker every morning.
Physically , mentally and emotionally .
And nobody can tell .

Do you ever have one of those days where nothing really goes wrong but yet you feel like you hate the word & the smallest thing that happens can make you break down & cry right there ..

Day & night, I am always tired. But at night, I stay up just late enough, until I am exhausted. Until I can fall into inmmediate slumber. Because I can't stand to lie in bed, in a dark room, alone with my thoughts for many hours.

I'm a daughter hiding my depression. I'm a sister making a good impression. I'm the girl sitting nest to you. I'm the one asking you to care. I'm your best friend, hoping you'll be there.

Can't be your little princess anymore. 
I'm not perfect anymore.
And I hurt to much.

I know how it feels to sit on the edge of your bed , head in your hands , just wishing it would all just end.

You were my cure & I was your disease. I was killing you & at the same time , you were saving me .

Progress report: I am missing you to death.

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiled, the one who could brighten up your day, even if she couldn't brighten her own.

I don't know if I'm getting better or just getting used to the pain.

I'm not my usual self, being quiet and lonely isn't 'me'. Crying all night, acting all day, this isn't how it's supposed to be.

Behind this innocent smile of mine, lay words left unsaid. Words of longing, love, anger, hate, all repeated, inside my head.

I'm okay , isn't that what I'm supposed to say ?
You might think I'm happy but really, I'm not.  My smile is the best lie I've got.